Brian and I have been married one year today. Sitting in church this morning, I was overwhelmed with all that God has done in our lives this past year. I decided to start a blog because I want to tell people about it! This blog will be about my spiritual journey, marriage, family, and there might be a good recipe or two thrown in. : ) Basically, my "view" on life and how God continues to broaden that view to see his will and purpose. And if Brian has a view to share, he might post too.
Brian and I go to First Euless and our pastor has been doing a series on the names of God. El Roi was the name we studied last Sunday. It means "the God who sees." The God who sees. There is such complexity to this simple phrase. He sees me. He sees my life, my circumstances and my struggles. He sees my bank account, my messy car, my dirty bathroom. He sees my anxious heart, my doubting head, my sinful actions. And he loves me. He died for me. Trusting God is considerably easier when you know his character. He is omniscient, knowing all things, and yet he sees every detail of my life.
This last year was my first year of marriage, but also my first year in "the real world." Looking back on this year, I truly see the goodness of God. He wants good things for his children. However, we must trust him even when we cannot see what he sees. When we got married, Brian did not have a job and I was babysitting a few days a week. (Thank you Barnards and Hunts!) However, for three months we paid our bills on a part time job and the money people generously blessed us with at our wedding. God saw us. He asked us to trust him, and we did. We weren't perfect. In fact, the day before Brian got his job offer my journal entry during my quiet time was, "I don't know what to pray anymore." I get the super-spiritual award! Maybe that's what God wanted, for me to be so beyond my own thoughts and ways that there was nothing left to do but trust him. I could not see his plan, but he could see me. He was there. And he was faithful. He is faithful. He is El Roi, "The God Who Sees."
